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And 10 . . .

What is a fitting tribute to the man you’ve spent the last 10 years married to . . . your best friend . . . the love of your eternity . . . your shoulder to cry on . . . your favourite laughing buddy . . . your soft place to fall?

What, indeed?

Perhaps what is most fitting today as I celebrate 10 years married to my beloved James is that I plan on celebrating our love every day of the next 10 years plus forever in the same (and hopefully better!) way that I’ve celebrated the last 10 years.

I love you hunny . . . you’re the most important person in the world to me, and I cannot imagine loving you more than I do today . . . except that I know that on 22 May 2019, I’ll look back and know that I love you more then than I do today . . .

Thank you for being my everything!

22 May 1999

Purpose?

Warning . . . rant/vent ahead . . . but perhaps this goes to show that I’m NOT Kate-the-Saint as it seems most people are thinking I am! :p

I’m struggling a lot right now . . . trying to see God’s purpose in the past 8 months since the (former) birthmother chose us.  And I can’t . . .

Perhaps it’s because I’m still grieving . . . and might be for a while . . . (side note . . . can I curl up in a ball and cancel life until I feel better?  no?  drat! :lol: )

I’m not angry . . . more just frustrated.  Have I forgiven the bmom for the pain she’s caused me?  Yes!  But I’m struggling with the knowledge that this pain didn’t have to happen.

No, I’m not saying that she should have given us the baby after all.  That wasn’t God’s plan.  I know that, and I’m okay with that part.

I’m saying I WISH she’d asked God what His plan for this little one was back when she found out she was pregnant.  Had she asked and let herself be open to His answer, I would never have been involved with the situation (except as her friend).

Perhaps then these empty arms would not ache so much.

I was doing GOOD . . . I was content with our family of 3 . . . excited with the possibilities that having an early empty nest would bring James and myself . . .

Did I have days when I wished that things had been different for us . . . that our dreamed-of family of 6+ kids would have been able to happen?  Sure!  But they were getting fewer and further between.  I had grieved my infertility, had gotten through it . . .

But with that one phone call in September, my world shifted . . . and I began to think like a young mom again.  I was excited (though a bit nervous!) to have another child.  To have a blessing fulfilled, because I thought I was meant to be the mother to more than one child.

So now, when those dreams that were made when my heart was whole are shattered in pieces on the floor . . . I find myself grieving again . . . not just the loss of this precious little one . . . but the whole infertility situation again.  *sighs*

I know I’m probably just “kicking against the pricks”, to use a Scriptural phrase, but honestly . . . I can’t see the purpose in this pain . . . does someone know what it is and can show me?

I don’t want to hurt like this anymore.

Our Story

I found this MEME originally on Beth’s site a year or so ago.  I played along then on a previous blog, and have decided to post it over here in honour of James and my upcoming anniversary! :)

1. Where did you meet your husband?

We met in an online chat for people of the LDS faith. It was called YChat and it was a great place to meet people and hang out online . . . I still have some very dear friends that I met there . . . :)

2. What was the first thing you said to your husband?

Other than “hi” . . . I have no clue. He says he remembers me from when I first hopped onto YChat in February 1998. I don’t really remember him until summer 1998, when I had more consistant access . . . (didn’t have ‘net access from late February until May-ish).

3. Where was your first date?

Our first REAL date was 11 February 1999. Since he was living in Kelowna, BC, and I was living in Salt Lake City, UT . . . our courtship was mainly online and phone calls . . . but I was able to visit him (no I did not stay with him!) in Kelowna for Valentine’s Day weekend.

Our first date . . . yeah . . . lol . . . There’s debate about this. Thursday (11 February), the day I arrived in Kelowna, we went for Chinese food with James’ best friend Neil (yes, Kimberly’s Neil) and his then girlfriend Denise. That is what I say our first date was.

James says our first date was the next night, 12 February. He took me to supper, proposed to me and then we went to a YSA Valentine’s dance. He says the other one doesn’t count because there were other people there?

Even got me in trouble with that one! My aunt threw me a bridal shower before I left Utah, and called James to get his answers for a few fun questions. The game was that I was supposed to answer the questions how HE would answer them. Imagine my utter flustration (yes folks, just coined a new word!) when I said the first date was something other than what HE said! :lol:

4. Did you have a short or long engagement?

We had a short-ish engagement, a long-ish “understanding”. In November 1998, we decided that we would marry each other and even set a tentative date. We did not “officially” get engaged until 12 February 1999, and got married 22 May 1999.

5. Where did you get engaged?

As mentioned before, James took me to supper before the Valentine’s Dance. In between supper and the dance, he took me for a scenic drive around Kelowna. Kelowna has a good stretch of beach (borders Lake Okanagan), and there’s one specific “park” called Gyro Beach. He took me there (and since it was too cold), and we sat in his car talking for a bit. He gave me a Valentine’s card and I opened it, read it and said “that’s nice hun” or something like that. He looked at me, exasperated, and said, “turn it over”, meaning the last page (you know how some cards have velum “inserts” to make them nicer). He’d taped my ring behind the last velum sheet. He then said he would be honoured if I would be his wife, and I said I’d be honoured to be his wife. He never really ASKED . . . and never got down on one knee . . . but, this year for Valentine’s Day, he offically asked . . . 10 years “after the fact”! :lol:

6. Where were you married?

We were married in the Cardston Alberta LDS Temple.

7. How did the reception go?

We had 2 receptions. The first one was in Lethbridge, Alberta, for most of my extended family, and the few friends who had come to the actual ceremony. We had a sit-down luncheon of roast, potatoes and the works . . . had a short program, including a ring ceremony, and the various other things like cutting the cake, tossing the boquet, and gift opening. It went very well I think! :) My favourite part was when my nieces and nephews sang “I Love to See the temple”, one of my favourite Primary songs.

The second reception was held almost a week later in Kelowna, for James’ friends. It was more casual, though we did have supper there as well. Gotta love KFC! LOL We had a dance at that reception though . . . and that was really fun. Also did cake cutting, bouquet toss, gift opening.

Funny story about the bouquet toss. The same girl caught the bouquet at BOTH receptions! :) It was almost as if I aimed for her . . . (I didn’t!) LOL

8. How was the honeymoon?

Isn’t that a bit personal? LOL We spent our honeymoon meandering back to Kelowna from Alberta. We had planned on staying up here in Edmonton (had heard great things about the West Edmonton Mall), but ended up not quite having the funds to do so. Our first 2 nights of married life were spent in a small little motel in central Calgary. Then, we drove to a little place in the Canadian Rockies called Radium Hot Springs, in BC. It’s a little town, but oh-so-peaceful . . . The weather was gorgeous and we just loved it there. That is where I say we had our honeymoon . . . and I’d love to go back . . .  We stayed there for 3-4 days, and then drove back to Kelowna to begin our “real” married life . . .

And now, with our 10th anniversary on Friday, I’m more in love with my beloved James than I ever thought possible! :)

 

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